Have you ever felt misunderstood? Have you ever
wrestled at understanding yourself and why you do the things you
do? David in Psalms 139 takes solace in his awareness or realization
that although he was often misunderstood and that he was often
unaware of all the "whys" and "wherefores"
surrounding his life, God knew everything about him. God's omniscience
and omnipresence were not theological doctrines for debate but
the foundation of his life. In verses 1-6 we find what David's
personal experience has taught him.
1 O LORD, thou hast searched me, and
2 Thou knowest my downsitting and
mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.
3 Thou compassest my path and my lying
down, and art acquainted with all my ways.
4 For there is not a word in my tongue,
but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.
5 Thou hast beset me behind and before,
and laid thine hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful
for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.
God knows the secrets of our hearts
(Psalms 44:11), and David praises Him for His providence. Much
is often said about man's search for and knowledge of God. David
takes comfort in God's search and knowledge of him, although he
acknowledges that such information is outside of his grasp. David's
wonder proceeds even farther.
7Whither shall I go from thy spirit?
or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou
art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning,
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
10 Even there shall thy hand lead
me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall
cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from
thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light
are both alike to thee.
Not only does God know us, He is
with us wherever we go. No matter where we may turn for rest or
seclusion we cannot escape God's oversight. The modern proverb
“that you may run, but you can't hide" certainly applies
to our relationship with God. But our realization that escape
and evasion is impossible forms a basis for honesty and candor
that infuses our relationship with God with vitality. Our realization
of God's omniscience and omnipresence should engender great wonder.
13 For thou hast possessed my reins:
thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.
14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully
and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul
knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee,
when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest
parts of the earth.
16 Thine eyes did see my substance,
yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written,
which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none
17 How precious also are thy thoughts
unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!
18 If I should count them, they are
more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.
Our relationship with God continues
to develop as we become more and more aware of His power and presence
in our lives.
19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked,
O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.
20 For they speak against thee wickedly,
and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
21 Do not I hate them, O LORD, that
hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against
22 I hate them with perfect hatred:
I count them mine enemies.
Those who do not respond to the
realization of God's omniscience and omnipresence with wonder
turn out bloody men, wicked men whose whose aim is to draw all
into their pernicious ways. We must hold to our wonder and reject
any one who tries to draw us away from our amazement of the goodness
and splendor of God. As the Psalm closes we find the heart of
the Psalmist returning to the comfort he expressed in verse one.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart:
try me, and know my thoughts:
24 And see if there be any wicked
way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
When we invite God to explore our
hearts, our desire for the deepest intimacy with Him blossoms.
At the basis of this yearning is the reward we expect for building
our relationship with God. If God knows my heart and tries my
thoughts surely He will reveal to me what I need to know and understand
about myself. He knows me fully and absolutely, and He still desires
the pleasure of my company. He is not done with us yet as Philippians
1:6 guarantees. This examination may expose "wicked ways"
or "ways of pain." His response to these pains and hurts
we have endured and may still harbor is to lead us away from them
into the "way everlasting."
The deepest longings of our hearts
and souls are realized when we grant the omnipotent One, the Creator
of the heavens and the earth access to those remote regions of
our lives. The great creative power of God is not just seen in
the glory of the universe. His greatest work is still being done
within the hearts and lives of those who invite Him in and desire
His handiwork to transform their lives. As surely as He has set
the sun, moon, and stars in their courses and our world continues
according to His plan, He can set the human heart on course, too.
We can be rooted , grounded, and established in the truth. His
creative power sees no mightier display than when His work upon
the human heart transforms selfishness to love and rebellion to
Paul's words to Timothy speak of God's power to transform
lives. Indeed, Paul's sees himself as a pattern to us who believe
unto life everlasting.
I Timothy 1:12-17:
12 And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord,
who hath enabled me, for that he counted me faithful, putting
me into the ministry;
13 Who was before a blasphemer, and
a persecutor, and injurious: but I obtained mercy, because I did
it ignorantly in unbelief.
14 And the grace of our Lord was exceeding
abundant with faith and love which is in Christ Jesus.
15 This is a faithful saying, and
worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world
to save sinners; of whom I am chief.
16 Howbeit for this cause I obtained
mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might shew forth all longsuffering,
for a pattern to them which should hereafter believe on him to
17 Now unto the King eternal, immortal,
invisible, the only wise God, be honour and glory for ever and
can see the eternal purposes of God worked out in our lives. God
has searched and known us. He compasses our paths. Let's invite
Him to go to work on our hearts. Aren't you interested in seeing
and displaying the masterpiece of your life to the world?